Cracks in the sun
Reflecting broken land
Cracks in the air
Like sharp pices in sand
Whispers in the air
Screaming shouting madly
They make it crystal clear
As they reprimand you harshly
Dont you dare want
What can never be
Dont you dare wish
To be something like free
Here lies a pit of darkness.
Here rots astounding badness .
This we should burn
And this we should break
And this we should punish
Give only more pain
Here beats a heart of black
Which shouldent be here at all
Here turns the fire into ash
Lets kill this monster whole
Burning fever
Wont control
The death inside
Crashing systems
Wont compell
The urge to hide
For as of now
I am still alive
Yes maybe tomorrow
I will go away
Or worse yet
Stay and live in pain
But for once in a lifetime
I dont need hope
I only need now
As my safety rope
Nonsense is beautiful
Yet meaningless emptiness
Is so constantly ruined
With ignorant expressions
Of complex perpose
Meaning only to defend
The incapability
To be
Beeing alive
Is killing me
So violently
That I wonder why
Life dosent even
Want me to be here
While death just wont
Let me in
Every breath
Is poisoning me
Desperately trying
To kill me to pieces
And you are thinking
That i talk to much
Of death
But i wont stop
For i am so completely
Obsessed
With life
What sence does it make
This breath is one i did not take
I dont know who it is you se
I promise you it is not me
I should not be alive at all
I saw the cliff and took the fall
I should by now
Be completely dead
But my words in your head
Are here instead
Bugs everywhere
Trying to get inside me
Creeping and crawling
In the dark
Secret bugs
That only i can se
And secret things
They do to me
I just think you should know
That i am sick
I am dying
As we speek
I supose you wont belive me
Uless i show you scars
Or fall off from a mountain
Or walking into a car
But i promise i am dying
And its right here in your face
But all you people wont admit it
Untill a million times to late
The pain never ends
It is always so close
We are now great friends
Although nobody knows
We spend hours together
Till i fear i might faint
Or live a life thats forever
Full of sadness and hate
And die while alive
With my soul up in space
Or live while im dead
And that this is my fate
How is it so simple to you
How do you just breath
My head is colapsing inside
My chest trembles and heaves
Your world must be diferent then mine
For mine is not safe now, not ever
So how come you stand there so clearly
As if we are living together
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